September

It has been a bit quiet around here lately and I just haven't felt like writing anything on this blog. I suppose I have been busy with work and so many doctors appointments I just haven't had the time to sit down and concentrate on blogging.

My husband turned 40 the other day and had a few days off work which was all spent as family time. We had a pretty low key day - had a drive around some suburbs in 'The Shire' just to have a look....we are obsessive real estate 'hunters' and wanted to look around the place. There are some nice spots down there, but we decided we would never move further than Tom Ugly's Bridge/Captain Cook Bridge. Unless it was much further down and we ended up in the Gong.
On the way back to our safe haven hehe, we stopped for yum cha in Blakehurst. The first yum cha place I've ever been to where there were no Asian people eating there. Not that it was bad, it was pretty good to be honest.

I have had a few emotional weeks as I start on my journey to better my mental health. As I have written in an earlier post, I have suffered from anxiety/panic attacks for a long time. It got to a point where enough was enough and I have finally started to do something about it. My poor little brain is at the point of panicking over nothing and I'm just sick of it.
First stop was a meltdown at the doctors, this doctor I have been seeing for years and she did not suspect it one bit. I guess I am very good at hiding it and totally internalizing my 'issues'. I have also had a holter monitor to monitor my heart (and basically give me peace of mind there is nothing wrong with my heart....and there is nothing wrong with it) and a few visits to see a psychologist. Unfortunately I am not happy with the psych and decided to stop seeing him, so I am looking for a new one.

I've actually had a couple of good weeks! My sister came down to visit and managed to take my mind of things and I have also started at the gym again which I think is working wonders. My sis and I did our first Body Balance class together and I loved it, I guess it's just like a yoga class and I have never done anything like that before. It made me realise how out of shape I am and I love the fact that it really focuses on BREATHING. Something I forget to do! I am a chronic shallow breather, almost hyper ventilator. I am learning to breathe again.

Anyway for someone that had nothing to say, I said a bit...